Meek and lowly of heart

To be meek and lowly of heart are gifts from Heavenly Father through the spirit. With the atonement I can leave my weaknesses behind. I can overcome my addictions and unrighteous desires. I can gain a relationship with Him and know how to help and comfort others. Constant prayer and scripture study. Even Journal writing. Yesterday I  had a huge setback. I yelled and beat my dog for peeing in my house. Then I yelled at my children. I realized afterward what I had done and had to separate myself from everyone to calm down and pray for strength to continue the rest of the night. What a horrible feeling to lose control! Yesterday was just a horrible day! The kids and I made Alan late for work and he will get a recorded reprimand, then I popped Hannah's wrist our of place trying to move her out of the cupboard and her throwing a fit by dropping down. It popped back into place by itself but good grief! 3 hours later. Then Alan gets called into an exercise and can't come home right away. Then the dog pees on my wall. ARGH! Today is going to be a good day! I will make it so! We get our Thanksgiving basket and we get to go to the Library. I want to check out some ABC books and read them to the kids. I also need to do several other things during the day today. It will be a good day! I will practice self control and be aware and present with my children. It is going to be great!

https://www.lds.org/liahona/2013/11/saturday-morning-session/be-meek-and-lowly-of-heart?lang=eng#listen=audio

Conference

To study the words again of conference is to gain more of an understanding of what the Lord and Heavenly Father wants us to do in our lives. Listening to Elder Hales talk, I felt I needed to again review conference so I can know what I need to do for myself and my family!
My cousin Diana is on her mission and I love how she takes the time to write to me on her P-days. Last week was a good week and I told her this:
 Hello Sis Chapman!

I have decided that this week is going to be a good week. We set up our calendar and I have goals to accomplish. One is spend time with my children and study the scriptures more. Keep up with my callings for church and get out of my comfort zone and talk to people. :) Also to get my house under control. I also need to get started on my Christmas gifts which will take some time.

I love reading your e-mail about tender mercies. I know we have had many lately. Especially when we pay tithing we seem to always be covered on our temporal needs. Just today though Moroni was having a really hard time and I really couldn't figure out what was going on. I literally had to hold him for Half and hour and I asked him if he wanted to pray and he said yes so we did and he calmed down so much and started listening so much better! I am about to cry thinking about it. There was another one last night. I won't go into details but I will say my Husband was aware of my needs. :) There is so many more like the new bible videos that we used for home evening on monday and everyone became so calm and I was actually able to look back on my day and say that yes though it was rough it was still a good day and we have solutions for a problem in our ward as well. :)

I will write some more later but right now I have to go cut up some pineapple yum!

Love you

Jeri

Her response was:

Hi Jeri,

Way to go on taking action to make things happen in your life. And I love that you put your family and the Lord first on the priority list and everything else can be built around that. I promise you that you will be blessed in more ways than you can ever imagine when you do that.  One thing I have come to realize is that we can't control everything in our lives and what happens but we can control how we feel and we can take action to help make our lives more in line with Heavenly Father. We can choose to suffer through life or we can choose to to take action to improve ourselves and our lives. When I finally gave up that control and just did the things the Lord asked me to do, Blessings were poured out to me and I have such a testimony of it.  I can already tell blessings are coming to you because of your willingness to do what the Lord has asked of you.

You are such a strength to me and I know that you are such a strength to your family and I hope you will continue to do that. I love you sooooo much and I had this sudden urge that I needed to tell you that Heavenly Father LOVES you unconditionally and that he wants nothing more than to have an amazing Father Daughter relationship with you and that if you continue to put your faith and trust in him, the righteous desires of your heart will be fulfilled. Stay close to him! I will talk to you soon. Tell everyone I said HI and I love you all!

Sister Chapman

I want to have the Father Daughter Relationship so I can teach my children to have it! She was so inspired this was definitely what I needed to hear or read. If I just keep going and doing what I know I need to I can gain all that I wish that is righteous. I just have to exercise faith and patience. It will come if I do all I can to have His spirit. I also need to continue with the Addiction Recovery Program that is offered. It is amazing how much the Lord gives us and many of us do not use or are too Prideful to use. I love the spirit that is there and they are wonderful people to help and guide us through our struggles and be more positive.

https://www.lds.org/liahona/2013/11/saturday-morning-session/general-conference-strengthening-faith-and-testimony?lang=eng#listen=audio

This morning is new morning

Just a few thoughts. Beauty comes from how you study the gospel and if we put on the full armor of Christ then we can stand in holy places and well as be a holy place. We can rejoice in our blessings and over come the things of the world. Continually pray for his help and guidance. Continually pray and thank Him for the blessings He showers down on us. This week will be a good week! Lots to do and experience. Lots to accomplish. Lots of time to teach my children and gain the spirit in my life continually. Must continually move forward and learn and grow.

Conference

The last two days have been AMAZING! I mean the spiritual feast that was given and I got to partake of. Beautiful General conference. Wonderful speakers talking about my responsibility as a mother that I feel I have neglected in many aspects. I have been so worried about my business and trying to keep my house clean and getting organized that my children have not had their mother around a whole lot. :( Time to refocus and go to the temple for my family and others, play with my children and do activities with them, get to know my neighbors and gain valuable relationships, serve those around me. I am not alone and my Father in Heaven is aware of my struggles and my heart. Faith is the key.

We have wanted for a very long time to put Moroni in dance classes and Hannah in gymnastics. We have been afraid we could not afford it and we are still afraid, but they are good things and I want to take that time to spend with each child even if it is only for a little while. We still have tithing to pay and we will then we will sign our children up for the classes and hope, pray, and have faith that it will work out to our good.

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10100260020144578&set=a.941240404758.2200016.23709651&type=1&theater

I have been really upset with the government for shutting down and not caring about the people who they are hurting and then they expect the citizens to stand by their idiotic decisions. I will follow God's laws and I will fight for His law and continue to teach my children the true meaning of life, liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness. It requires work and faith for "faith without works is dead" God bless the USA! "Choose you this day whom ye will serve, but as for me and my house we will serve the Lord!!"

Watch conference feel of the Spirit and Know that all things are possible for with the Help of the Lord!

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/sessions/2013/10?cid=HPFR100413105&lang=eng

"Love the Lord thy God with all your might, mind, and strength!" "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God!"

"Daily Bread"

Our simple daily routines if we call them that of reading scriptures and saying prayers help transform us.

http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=2649250157001

I must live moment to moment day by day. If I can just get my daily requirement and not keep asking for the end result good things will happen. Maybe He wants us to walk through it with Him. He is teaching us how to overcome with His help. It helps not to think too much ahead but to go day by day and we may not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but we have enough for today.

http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=2649255347001

We are expected to look to him for daily nourishment. Taking one day at a time. He is content with our progress and will help us continue with it. "With His atonement we become different people than we would be without it." He is who we aspire to be.  Be patient of with time.

http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=2649250159001

I am becoming the person I want to be. I still have a long way to go, but I am getting there. I need to continually apply the messages I get to my life and practices through the day. Prayer is a must. I need to do it on my own as well as with my children and husband. I would like to incorporate couples prayer in the mornings. I just don't feel like I have support, but I know I do. I just have to set the example.

10 things I am thankful for

1. My wonderful patient husband.
2. I am grateful for my husband's smile
3. I am grateful for my daughter Hannah's curiosity and genuine unconditional love.
4. I am grateful for Moroni's energy.
5. I am grateful for my friend Shannon who is a wonderful support
6. I am grateful for my friend Nicole who is also a like minded thinker and wonderful support
7. I am grateful for banks and the ability to get loans for needed help
8. I am grateful for HMO and TMO for reimbursing us for our moving expenses
9. I am grateful for Tonja Winters who gave us fresh food that we really needed.
10. I am grateful for the PSI work because I feel it has brought out the Daughter of God that I really am.

The Lord Never Shouted at me

I have made the commitment not to yell at my children in anger. I have learned that they will not trust me if I continued to give negative vibes. This article in the ensign shows me or confirms to me that I am in the right path. :)

http://www.lds.org/ensign/2013/09/the-lord-never-shouted-at-me?lang=eng

She talks about how one of her children goes astray with drinking smoking drugs and foul language and because she was so scared for him she would confront him and they would argue loudly. She even received a blessing where the Lord chastised her for yelling at her children saying something like I never yelled at you. He also encouraged the parents to let their son make his own choices unless it directly affected the family. He would have to take the consequences for those actions as well.

I know I continually catch myself when I am angry and have shift to keep under control. It takes practice and we do mess up sometimes. We just have to keep going and we will succeed!! My little boy like to try me and I have this thought from reading the article that I will let him be. He knows mostly right from wrong but we are all still learning so patience and understanding is key. Today is going to be a GREAT day!